Im not sure...

on anything right now.

its just been a really bad day.

i dont feel like being around people.
but i have like 30 diffrent things i could go out and do.
and I dont want to do any of them.

and if i dont go out w/ one person they will be pissed bc i "keep blowing them off"
if i dont do anything with the other person it will just cause a fight that im not up for...but if i hang out with them they will be pissed im not happy.
and if i do my third option...i feel like ill just bring everyone else down.



im going to shower.



this is how i feel.

nothing more.
nothing less.


Beautiful Disaster (its on repeat)

She loves her mama's lemonade, Hates the sound that goodbyes make.She prays one day she'll find someone to need her.She swears that there's no difference, Between the lies and compliments. It's all the same if everybody leaves her. And every magazine tells her she's not good enough, The pictures that she sees make her cry.And she would change everything, everything just ask her.Caught in the in between, a beautiful disaster, And she just needs someone to take her home.She's giving boys what they want, tries to act so nonchalant, Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction. She never stays the same for long,Assuming that she'll get it wrong.Perfect only in her imperfection. She's not a drama queen, She doesn't want to feel this way, only seventeen but tiredShe would change everything for happy ever after.Caught in the in between, a beautiful disaster,But she just needs someone to take her home.Cuz she's just the way she is, but no ones told her that's ok.And she would change everything, everything just ask her. Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster, And she would change everything for happy ever after. Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster, But she just needs someone to take her homeAnd she just needs someone to take her home